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1/26/07

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i've been gone a while

an almost finished doodle...
it's a half sleeve idea for mikey.
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05:52 am
9/12/06

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What to do....
So, im going camping.
Im leaving this Thursday, the 14th, and coming back on the 22nd.
I am going with my grandfather, great aunt, and second cousin.
It should be fun, we are visiting New Mexico for the first few days,
then venturing to Colorado to camp out and hike.
I really just need to get out of town and clear my thoughts,
this is perfect timing.
Everything will be good.
When i get back, I'll get a job for a bit of money.
Other then that, i've been considering moving to Colorado.
To live with Allison of course, she has an apartment in Littleton.
If i was to go out there, it would probably be either in January or next fall.
I don't really have much here, I need to motivate myself and try something new.
Im wasting time just sitting around doing nothing and depending on my folks.
I don't know though, its mostly just another option.
I have three options:
1. Stay here.
2. Live in Alaska with god-parents and go to school.
3. Move to Colorado and live with Allison.
I will make a decision when i get back, i suppose.


p.s. i don't hate you, you're missed.
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Current Music:
 postal service
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02:12 am
9/12/06

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never settle for good enough.
and never let yourself be someones good enough.
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05:31 pm
9/11/06

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to mikey...
i dont understand how you possibly think i could do it again....
this was that last chance, the one that you lied to get.
you make me feel like i did last time.
after everything we have been through, well i guess its better this way.

but dont come to me saying i never loved you.
cause i sure as fucking hell did.
or else i wouldnt have put up with all that.
my problem is that i don't love myself and you didn't help any bit.

you know i can't be just friends.
at least now its both of you back on the market for your
paired whores.......
have fun.

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i hate you so much./hfuk
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05:58 am
9/7/06

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life is swell
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08:16 pm
8/4/06

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GEMINI-

Beware of people bearing gifts or sharing big ideas, 
for they can test how grounded you are now. 
You won't be satisfied if you drop everything you 
are doing just to jump into someone else's project. 
Instead, do something exciting like climbing a 
glacier or skydiving to make you feel fully alive.
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02:33 am
8/4/06

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Razors pain you; Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give;
Gas smells awful; You might as well live. 

-Resume by Dorothy Parker
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12:47 am
7/27/06

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loves a two-way dream
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11:36 am
7/24/06

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JOB:
Selectron: 12 hours a day 3-4 days a week OR 8 hours a day 7 days a week. Shift 3: 7pm-7am

LIVING STATUS:
Verandah: 2bed-2bath, HUGE. Gina and I are moving in during September. 

LOVE-LIFE:
I was dumped. so i am "single". (easier to get my shit together)

Nothing else is going on.
Ryan's band: Revel in this Fashion
is playing tomorrow night.

Tuesday July 25th at Trubadour... i think.
I'll find out later on today.
If you want to go to it, and need more info, you can call me.
well.... everybody have a good day,
i'm going back to sleep.

FY!: i got a new phone, same number just DON'T TEXT MESSAGE ME.... i can't get them... it expensive because everyone like talking that way, so.... call, don't message.
thank you.
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11:49 pm
7/21/06

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im done.
with you.

i love you but...
i don't like you.
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02:44 am
7/11/06

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he came back
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12:25 am
7/11/06

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so...

 

he just walks away,
to an area unknown.
the street light gives me one last glimpse,
"ill be back," he said.
i almost believe him.
thoughts buzz through my bland feelings,
doesnt he care about me?
my feelings of anguish?
will he come back to me tonight,
because he loves me?
or because it is convenient?

is that why he still looks at me?
tells me we'll be together forever,
just because im here and will be.

the hours spent behind the wheel together dont matter.
he doesnt think twice,
i changed, i tried.
im left in a blank stare seeing his shadow fade.
where is he?

 
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01:39 pm
7/10/06

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grrrrrrr
mikey is mean to me.

butt face.
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12:16 pm
6/25/06

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a new day

it is time to prioratize:

1. Job: work at least 30 hrs a week if not closer to 40
    Save money to move out before august and still have extra cash for things to come up.
2. Family: hang out with my brother more.
     Visit everybody more so that they are content.
3. Friends: hang out with allison as much as possible before she goes back to denver.
     Hang out with friends whenever i have the chance, stop waiting.



Its been a calm little weekend.
billiards brings back memories and fun times.
i did my usually movie marathon that i do with myself.
(watch the 3rd season of scrubs on saturday along with pride and prejudice, and family stone.)

Everybody have a good week.

who all is going to warped tour this year.... i still dont know if i am.
$ is an issue...... but let me know.

Current Location:
 my bedroom
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09:54 am
6/1/06

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i haven't been doing much.
but i dont mind.

this early month is gonna be crazy!

june 8-my birthday & work training
june 11-tanya's birthday
june 12-i meet my first client & alli's bf gets here
june 15-i meet second client
june 21-it's been a year
june 23-mikey's birthday
june29-final work training ALL DAY & NIGHT

that's the jist of it, but man, there is work, shows, and extra shoved in between those dates.
just not SCHEDULED.

life is GOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
a little frustrating at times,
but what can you do?

nothing.
so im making the best of everything.
im loving my boyfriend.
hanging out with my girls.
watching the boys play lots of PS2 video games.
multiplayer shooting games.

well, my alarms about to go off.
and tanya is gonna wake up.
off to watch the rest of evolution.
and etc.

loveeeeeeeeeee,
me

Current Location:
 mikey, tanya, and b's closet
Current Mood:
 awake awake
Current Music:
 plumbing in the walls
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06:09 pm
5/30/06

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so. life is alright.
nothing is happening.
my job is taking a while to get started.
soon though.
finally i will have an income,
and something to do.

my birthday is in a week and 1 day...
woo hooo!
not really.


Current Mood:
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03:09 pm
5/21/06

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happy times
so, im at thomas' house right now, with the boys.
they are practicing.
cuteness.

i got my job.
its gonna be amazing.
life skills trainer for people with autism.
$15 an hour, plus milage...
only thing that sucks is:
full day of training is on june 8th.
my birthday.
blah.

life is sweet.

mikey and i are doing swell.
allison is back in town.
excitement. love.

Current Location:
 thomas' room
Current Music:
 traitors on the ground practice
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06:47 am
5/19/06

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TODAY IS NICE
so far.

i took mikey to work almost an hour ago.
filled up my tank.
some guy in a hummer was asking me directions.
but in that weird, hitting on way.
i was not enthused.
oh well.
got me some mcdonalds breakfast.
and my cola is too carbonated, no syrup.

lame.

otherwise, it looks nice and sunny for me.

today is my daddy's birthday.
the big 35!
WOOHOOO!!!!!!!
i would call him but my phone is dead, and
i can't find the land-line phone.

anyways.
im off to nap.
and shower.

love.

everybody have a good friday.

Current Location:
 apartment
Current Mood:
 chipper chipper
Current Music:
 Ed snoring...
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06:51 pm
5/17/06

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i have finished invisible monsters.
i've decided to restart choke.
if i can find it.
or ill just read survivor.

:)
i miss reading

Current Location:
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Current Music:
 parents and brother talking
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02:27 pm
5/17/06

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"on game shows, some people will take the trip to France, but most people will take the washer dryer pair"
"game shows are designed to make us feel better about the random, useless facts that are all we have left of our education."
"when did the future switch from being a promise to being a threat?"
"only when we eat up this planet will God give us another. we'll be remembered more for what we destroy than what we create."
"we are all self-composting."
"when we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves."
"you ahve to keep recycling yourself."
"nothing orf me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known."
"the one you love and the onwho loves you are never ever te same person."

can you tell me what those quoted fears are from.
one hint: it's a book.

love

Current Location:
 bedroom
Current Music:
 angels & airwaves
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